climb up, over the top.

by Ellen in ,

he said, you shouldn't mumble when you speak
but keep your tongue up in your cheek
and if you stumble on to something
you better remember that it's humble that you seek
you got all the skill you need,
you got something
call it gumption
call it anything you want
because when you play the fool now
you're only fooling everyone else
you're learning to love yourself

climb up, over the top
survey the state of the soul
you've got to find out for yourself
whether or not you're truly trying
why not, give it a shot
shake it, take control
inevitably wind up finding for yourself all the strengths you have inside still rising

i went to see evan almighty today, and it was funny, i guess. steve carell is pretty funny. it wasn't the most poignant movie i've ever seen, but there was one part that really stood out to me. God (who is played by morgan freeman) is talking to evan's wife (lauren graham aka lorelai gilmore/the love of my life) because she is troubled about her crazy husband wanting to build an ark because "God told him to". lauren graham obviously doesn't know she's talking to God, but he says something i feel i've known for a long time, but i've just never been able to put it into words:

"Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?"

i pray for patience a lot, and every time, i feel like i'm thwarted when i try to use it. i've resented God a little bit for it, but i kind of had an "aha moment" and understood that all these times that i've been tested are merely opportunities to better myself.

now this is what i've been thinking about lately: "The important thing is that in every way, whether from false motives or true, Christ is preached". This is something paul says in philippians. i think this way about christian music. now i'm beginning to feel this way about movies. can God use commercial entertainment to reach us? i think he's been expecting all of this technology, so in order to keep up with his people, does he use the things we've created? does God adapt to our lifestyle? or is he trying last resort techniques to get to us because we've drifted so far? wow, we're getting deep.

but is paul right? does it matter about the reasons behind the message? God's reaching out to us constantly, hoping we'll catch a glimpse of his majesty. he used scruffy people like moses and noah and elijah and david and jesus and matthew and paul to spread his word and help make him real. is it really unimaginable for him to use movies or music or really anything that has taken over our lives? i'm not saying that i'm the biggest fan of false motives. sometimes it seems as if God is being made fun of. but i think that maybe if his name is mentioned, he's still working. giving us knowledge, challenging us to doubt, but eventually, he'll surprise us with an opportunity to have faith.

this is what james says: you believe that there is one God. good! even the demons believe that--- and shudder.

at the end of the movie, morgan freeman (God) holds up the tablets of the 10 commandments. he flips them over and to reveal and 11th commandment: thou shalt do the dance. i think if God were to look like anyone or anything, it would definitely be morgan freeman. he's got a great sense of humor and a very nice smile.