by Ellen in


ou left your thumbprint inside me now for months it seems
but mine only brushes your soft surface
and somehow now, somehow it leaves me listless

ok, i feel like i MUST write about this, only because it took over my life for the past two days. don't worry, i won't spoil anything, that's not nice. all i will say is that i made an odd noise when i discovered my theory was indeed, correct.

so, i read harry potter and the deathly hallows in ten hours. and as soon as i shut the book at 12:46 this morning, i wanted to start all over again, because it's really over. done. terminado. but it was so incredible. TONS of teachable moments.

like this one:

"Do not pity the dead, Harry. Pity the living, and, above all, those who live without love."

and this one:

"Tell me one last thing," Harry said. "Is this real? Or has this been happening inside my head?"

"Of course it's inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?"

and this one:

"Is it love again?" said Voldemort. "Dumbledore's favorite solution, love, which he claimed conquered death..."

i wish i could say something right now, but it would give everything away. but i'd like to say that i think j.k rowling is a christian. she made up a story about a boy who knew that he must die to save the world from evil. she must have been inspired by something. it feels vaguely reminiscent of this guy i know who was born to die in order to defeat death...

and why is it such a problem for people? j.k rowling has gotten people to read again. what's wrong with a fantastical world of magic and spells and nonreality? that's kind of what all fiction is, right? people don't actually believe it. it's a story, it's literature. so what's the difference between scripture and harry potter?

i think scripture is scripture because it's something that you wrestle with. it's hard to understand God's covenant (or testament) with us all. it's a story, it's literature, but it's something that's challenging on such a different level than...say...harry potter. the grappling with grace and salvation and unconditional love that is presented in scripture is what makes it so important. the story of jacob wrestling with the angel is the biggest allegory for our relationship to scripture. jacob lied and did a lot of crappy things, then met a "man" (who was really an angel) and wrestled and fought him, then God changed his name from jacob (or, one who contends with God) to israel (one who has struggled with God and men and has overcome). it's a fundamental part of judaism to understand that one must contend and struggle and wrestle with the text in order to overcome and be spared and cared for by God. (at least, this is what i've gathered. i'm no scholar, for certain)

harry potter (and other lit) is not something we must grapple with. that's why, i think, it's such a discipline to read the Bible. it's hard. here is an instruction manual for our lives, but we don't read because we know we have to do what it says. sometimes we struggle with it, sometimes we ignore it (which, in my opinion, is still struggling with it).

but, if God had a face, it would look like morgan freeman's; but if i had to pinpoint God' personality, it would be a lot like dumbledore's. he's witty and clever, and likes to give harry instructions from beyond the earth he walks on.

sorry, i've gone off on a tangent. i really like harry. i used to not read so much into things. i think about God a lot, and it becomes hard not to see his hand in everything i do.

and harry is actually 26 years old in 2007. that makes me feel a little better. for a while, i was worried i was enchanted by a 17 year old boy. i also think it's pretty cool that j.k rowling wrote this last almost 10 years ago, and didn't change harry's birthday year to fit when the book would actually be published. that doesn't really matter, i just think it's neat.