worst nightmare

by Ellen in ,

I had the worst nightmare ever, and I've never done this, but I woke up CRYING. It was terrible. I don't have nightmares, but if I did, this would be the worst.

I dreamed that I was at this house in Cordova, and I'm not sure whose it was, but there everyone brought their dogs...like Elise and me, my sister, some friends, people from church, etc. All of these dogs were playing and hanging out in the house, in the backyard, in the front yard, everywhere. Can you see where this is going?

So, everyone is hanging out, playing with puppies, and Luna is in the group that is in the front yard. She gets really dirty and gross, and I tell her she can't come inside, because she'll mess the house up. She says OK and sits on the front porch until the party is over. I go outside to check on her a little while later, and she is GONE.

I'm frantically searching for her, running up and down the street, calling her name, and she is NOWHERE to be found. Then, this young priest, Jacob, that people have been trying to set me up with comes along in his church van, and asks me what the problem is. I tell him, and he and his bodyguard (not sure why he has a bodyguard, but he did in my dream) drive around the neighborhood looking for Luna. The sky is getting darker, and this man that I had just met at the party comes outside and is helping me find her, too. Then his mother comes out, looks at her son, and tell me that she might know where Luna is.

OK, be careful, because it gets pretty gruesome. I'm not kidding. Elise, you probably don't want to read this part.

So I follow them to their house just down the street, and they have one of those fancy stainless steel refrigerators, and the freezer is a drawer that pulls out. In the freezer, I see all of these body parts, and I'm completely terrified, even though Preacher Jacob is with me. But these body parts are DOG body parts, and they start to pull out all of Luna's pieces. I'm in total disbelief that it's her, so they show me her torso, and I can tell it's her by the scar on her belly.

These people think it's no big deal that they've just killed and dismembered Luna, and shut the freezer, telling me there's nothing I can do about it.

So, I leave their house, and I'm totally undone, because I just saw my favorite animal's body parts in a freezer, and I'm crying hysterically. On the way back, I see my friend Bill and tell him about Luna, and he just shrugs. I tell him it's my fault, and he says it's no big deal. I'm telling everyone I see that if I had just let Luna inside, then she wouldn't have gotten stolen and killed. I'm completely disgusting with tears and sadness, and I make it back to the party to break the news to Elise. She's in mid conversation with someone, and gives me a strange look because I'm so sad-looking, and I tell her what happened. She looks at me like, "so what?" and I tell her over and over how sorry I am. She doesn't think it's a big deal at all, and I'm freaking out even more, because I just killed her dog, and she's not upset about it.

So anyway, I woke up in tears, and now, this is what Luna and I are doing, because I feel so bad about killing her. Looney, I am very sorry and I love you very much.

Here is one time when she was little and we snuggled: